on relationships

i read somewhere that foreigners find it funny how filipinos would always greet one another with "kumain ka na ba?". It does not matter where they meet or what they plan to do that day. it simply stands that the whole lifestyle revolves on food.

in my case, the people in my immediate surroundings seem to have nothing more to ask me these days outside of- "Do you already have a boyfriend?" It's like a person's whole social life has to revolve on the issue of boys. haaay!

I think they, the people who keep inquiring, feel that my life will be complete once i get into a relationship. but looking for and gaining a relationship for the sake of claiming my life is complete is utterly wrong. why should my happiness have to depend on a boy friend? why should my efforts, my thoughts and my existence depend on the foundation (or the lack of) finally finding the one.

hey, don't misread me i DO want a relationship- for the purpose of marrying someday and bringing up a family but dude! as long as im not ready for that, im not about to go looking for it...

sure im not going to meet so called prospects if i continue to maintain my home- work- home-church-home- mall- home routine. but it does not necessarily follow that if i went out and had worldly fun at bars (places i dont like at all) then i would find myself the guy meant for me.

see that's the word MEANT. if he's meant for me, he'll come, rain or shine, from sea through shining sea. he's got to be first and foremost someone i can be myself around. someone who would not be ashamed to raise his hands to pray and praise my Savior. he most definitely must not be the type to lag around at my tail because for sure he's going to be left waaay waaay behind- in other words someone who has found himself already, (if yah know what i mean).

are my standards too high? NO. i've always set these standards for myself to comply with, so why should i compromise them for someone meant to be ONE (as in flesh of my flesh, bone of my bone) with me?

i have had relationships in the past but they did not work. my lack knowledge of self and lack of vision for the future back then may be put to blame. but now that i know where i want to go and what i want to do for the rest of my life (that is submitted for the approval of J.C), then i can keep doing what i want to do until that specified time comes.

there is a promise of better things in waiting. and even if in vain, there is dignity in it.